Ven's Diary

self-development at its finest

Another Step Back

Today I heard back from a company who interviewed me earlier this week. I didn’t get the job.

This is the second time I’ve applied for a position, reached the second or third stage and failed to progress any further. The irony of it is, the first job I applied for? They advertised it as a means to boost confidence. But the reason they decided not to hire me was because I wasn’t confident enough.

I do feel demotivated. I’m not at all surprised though; this second application I had a strong feeling I wouldn’t get the job. Statistics do show that people with HFA (High Functioning Autism) don’t succeed as much as neurotypical applicants.

It just means I have to work that much harder – and please don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining! Self-development is something I love to do. But I worry about how I’ll get and hold a career in the future, and what will happen once I end up unemployed again.

The first step is to locate the areas for improvement and come up with a plan to improve upon them. That I have autism does not mean I’m 100% unemployable, and I refuse to allow it to commandeer my chances of success! I’ll start by getting the feedback from both employers. But first I need to finish re-organizing my coursework.

I’ll let you know how it goes.




Entry 001: Life Goal Reached

“The INFJ personality type is very rare, making up less than one percent of the population, but they nonetheless leave their mark on the world.”

My name is Ven and I am first and foremost a writer.

I’ll kickstart this blog by telling you a little bit about me. I’m a student at University, early 20’s, and I’ve left that little snippet at the top so you know what kind of person I am: a paradox.

I love motorbikes, I love writing, and most of the time I love solitude. I spend most of my time observing and listening, reading and researching, and striving to find new experiences to write about.

First Aid at Work (High Risk)

Recently I completed one of my life goals: to become a qualified first aider. It was a high risk First Aid at Work course, run by the Red Cross. Hannah was my teacher, and she taught me a lot about different conditions and injuries. To give examples, I know what I should do if I come across someone who has been burned or poisoned – there are different types to each of these – and what I should do for people with certain health conditions, such as epilepsy.

I’m trying to remember the criteria for sprains and strains, fractures and breaks. They’re relatively similar, but I have resources from the course to refer to (one of them is tea-stained). Presently, I’m trying to find events to volunteer at.

To-Do List (and recently done)

Here is a little list of what I’ve always wanted to do, and what I have recently done.

I’ve always wanted to learn to play the guitar. That’s a work in progress; for my birthday I got myself a black Ashton and some thin green plectrums. I’ve learned two chords: A & D.

I’m working on learning German and Sign Language in my spare time, but until I have my studies out of the way they’re on hold.

Something I’ve always wanted to do is sit in on University courses and blog about my experience on them. So far I could write about my present course, but I want to try a wide range of them; I want to learn what really makes them interesting and unique, and find out what makes people want to take them.

Speaking of courses, though, I really need to get on with my work, so I’ll leave it here for now.